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Zelos Wilder ([personal profile] presidentheartbeat) wrote in [personal profile] summonerd 2019-07-20 04:30 pm (UTC)

Zelos can't get anything with milk in it because he's lactose intolerant

Even if the smile doesn't reach her eyes, the single fact that Sheena's smiling, or at least attempting to, turns everything Zelos thinks he knows about the situation on its head. What? He draws a sharp breath and takes half a step back. Honestly, Zelos had expected to get screamed at again, or to be questioned, to be told he's a disappointment and untrustworthy, to be fought two on one; anything akin to a punishment, things he deserves for his unruly behaviour. Yet instead here's his driver offering a way back, quite obviously trying to remain calm about it all.

It's a lot to take in, at once. Especially when Kratos speaks up next, snatching Zelos' attention and holding it with his words. The Aegis' grip on his sword tightens just a touch, flames crackling gently in the following silence after Kratos finishes his speech. The raging fire in his core is snuffed out by the cold droplets of fear and shame left behind, logic finally breaking through his more overwhelming emotional side as it is finally calmed, as Zelos finally finds some semblance of focus in the way the sun finally disappears from the skies and the area around the three of them darkens considerably.

And just like that, Zelos is left at a loss.

Slowly, Zelos lowers his sword, his shoulders slumping as the fight is exhaled out of his system. The choice that Kratos leaves in his hands is like a fork in the road, two different outcomes he can pick to follow: go back to Tethe'alla and die a martyr, or continue to live to rescue Colette and Martel. The hurting, angry part of his core that demands justice through destruction urges him to go back and follow through with the former, but the shamed and small bits of logic he sees reflected in Kratos' eyes tells him this is just an excuse for a pointless suicide.

Is that really worth it? Is putting himself in danger like that, undoing everyone else's hard work and the ground they've covered so far, really worth it just for a chance to get revenge and choose the way he dies?

Does that solve anything? Is it really that easy?

Of course not. It's so much more complicated than that.

Sheena and Kratos' silence is deafening, so finally, he makes a choice. With a simple thought the sword in Zelos' hand is dismissed in a flash of fire, head lowered to glare down at the ground instead of any of his escorts. Inhale, exhale. Try to calm down, slowly release the emotional bleed as some sort of peace offering to his driver, a silent apology for his words. It's not a whole lot, he knows, but it's his own way to communicate as he mumbles to the open air, "We should head back already."

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