Immediately, Lloyd feels the need to defend Zelos, to take the blame for what he had done, for what he had forced the party to do. I betrayed his trust before he betrayed mine, rises from the back of Lloyd's throat, ready to be spoken on a moment's notice, but then Lloyd remembers what Sheena had said to him before, when they talked that day in the forest. Zelos had been selling out the party from the start.
Maybe he had always hated Lloyd. Maybe, some part of Lloyd's mind wanders, searching desperately for a reason why Zelos would have wanted this, he only got close to Lloyd to gain information from him easier. (Lloyd knows, in his heart, that that isn't true. Lloyd had a chance and he blew it.)
So instead, he continues listening to Mithos. And the thing is, Lloyd knew that as soon as he opened up for questions, his relationship with Zelos was going to be brought up, obvious as it is that what Zelos and Lloyd had was something a little deeper than friendship but exactly explored, not before Zelos' death at Lloyd's hands. But something still forces Lloyd to freeze when Mithos asks, bluntly, if Lloyd had loved him. Maybe it's the fact that Lloyd's never admitted to it out loud before - (everyone in the party just knew) - or maybe it's because he's talking to Mithos, who knows this world's Zelos. But either way, he sits, closes his eyes, takes a deep breath, and answers honestly.
"I loved him more than I can describe," he says, blinking, forcing himself to speak the truth of what he had been grieving about for months on end. "And for a bit, there, I thought… I thought we might have had a chance."
FUCK I FORGOT TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT but good point, @ origin what's your deal
Maybe he had always hated Lloyd. Maybe, some part of Lloyd's mind wanders, searching desperately for a reason why Zelos would have wanted this, he only got close to Lloyd to gain information from him easier. (Lloyd knows, in his heart, that that isn't true. Lloyd had a chance and he blew it.)
So instead, he continues listening to Mithos. And the thing is, Lloyd knew that as soon as he opened up for questions, his relationship with Zelos was going to be brought up, obvious as it is that what Zelos and Lloyd had was something a little deeper than friendship but exactly explored, not before Zelos' death at Lloyd's hands. But something still forces Lloyd to freeze when Mithos asks, bluntly, if Lloyd had loved him. Maybe it's the fact that Lloyd's never admitted to it out loud before - (everyone in the party just knew) - or maybe it's because he's talking to Mithos, who knows this world's Zelos. But either way, he sits, closes his eyes, takes a deep breath, and answers honestly.
"I loved him more than I can describe," he says, blinking, forcing himself to speak the truth of what he had been grieving about for months on end. "And for a bit, there, I thought… I thought we might have had a chance."